Random #03042009

Am I going to lose a very good friend?

We have great time together but you are now ignoring me.

Is there something happened or happening between us that I have no idea what it is?

Is there something I did and that hurts you?

Please tell me unless you do not want to see me banging my head to the wall figuring out what's happening.

I am so perplex.

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Taken after the photo shooting session.

Unintentionally took this picture but I pick this picture on purpose.

Take care my friend.

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Have you ever ...

Do you ever feels like lying on the bed but you know you are not sleepy...

You neither need any rest nor you were tired...

You just feel like lying on the bed because you do not have the mood to do anything else but lying on the bed...

You stare at the ceiling or at the wall...

And in your mind, you are actually thinking of someone...

Someone that you adore... Someone that you really concern...

You might wonder what is he or she actually doing right now...

Is he or she missing you at the same moment too?

Or is he or she actually doesn't felt the same to you...

You feel are so aimless... so perplexed... so helpless...

Ask yourself...

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Are you inlove?

Who am i ?

5th october 2008 ... who i am to you on this special day ?

6th october 2008 ... who i am to you the day after 5th pctober 2008 ?

7th october 2008 ... who i am to you tomorrow?

Who i am to you on 13th october when i go back to Sg, Long ?

Who i am to you every weekend when i'm in Seremban ?

I am real Confused ... I perplxed...

You tell me ...

Am i just a friend ?

Am i just a close friend ?

Am i closer than close friend ?

Am i your Girl friend ?

Or im stucked in between 3rd and 4th ?

Yes ... We both admitted that we have special feeling ...

Yes ... We both have some personal problems to settle...

Yes ... I truly understand what you cant let go ...

Yes ... You wanted to try ...

Yes ... I wanted to try ... but we both know things couldn't work this way ...

I dun wish to have things become more complicated ...

You said you can only compare when both are yours ...

What are you comparing ?

Are you comparing which girl is better in terms of attitude and the way she treats you ? or

Are you actually comparing which one you love even more ?

I tell you what ... you are now comparing a girl that u have in LOVE since secondary school until today with the girl u have only KNOW for few freaking days ...

Do you still need to compare?

Pls ... pls understand that im actually in pain ...

Behind those smiles and laughs ... Im actually crying ...

I been thinking who we were ...

I been thinking whats the ending of our story ...

Perhaps we dont even have a story ...

What i should do ?

I am totally LOST ...

Please lead me back to the exact path ...

MARS vs VENUS ...

1. Guys may be flirting around all day, but before they go to sleep, they always think about the girl they truly care about.

2. Guys are more emotional then you think, if they loved you at one point, it'll take them a lot longer then you think to let you go, and it hurts every second that they try.

3. Guys go crazy over a girl's smile (:

4. A guy who likes you wants to be the only guy you talk to.

5. Giving a guy a hanging message like "You know what...uh...never mind...” would make him jump to a conclusion that is far from what you are thinking. And he'll assume he did something wrong and he'll obsess about it trying to figure it out.

6. If a guy tells you about his problems, he just needs someone to listen to him. You don't need to give advice.

7. A usual act that proves that the guy likes you is when he teases you.

8. GUYS LOVE YOU MORE THEN YOU LOVE THEM!!!

9. Guys use words like hot or cute to describe girls. They rarely use beautiful or gorgeous. If a guy uses that, he loves you or likes you a whole heck of a lot.

10. If the guy does something stupid in front of the girl, he will think about it for the next couple days or until the next time he spends time with the girl.

11. If a guy looks unusually calm and laid back, he's probably faking it and he is really thinking about something

12. When a guy says he is going crazy about the girl, he really isGuys rarely say that

13. When a guy asks you to leave him alone, he's just actually saying, "Please come and listen to me

14. If a guy starts to talk seriously, listen to him. It doesn't happen that often, so when it does, you know something's up.

15. When a guy looks at you for longer than a second, he's definitely thinking something.

16. Guys really think that girls are strange and have unpredictable decisions and are MAD confusing but somehow are drawn even more to them.

17. A guy would give the world to be able to read a girl's mind for a day.

18. No guy can handle all his problems on his own.He's just too stubborn to admit it.

19. NOT ALL GUYS ARE RUDE!!!

Just because ONE is RUDE doesn’t mean he represents ALL of them

20. When a guy sacrifices his sleep and health just to talk to you, he really liked you and wants to be with you as much as possible.

21. Even if you dump a guy months ago and he loved you he probably still does and if he had one wish it would be you to come back into his life.

Ther person who wrote this emphasized >> Everything said in this bulletin is TRUE ( how true is true? )

Let the "Female Dog" do the talking ..

2 weeeks ago i posted this personal message in my MSN ..

If anyone of u cant see the picture clearly .. i've actually wrote "I shall take up smoking before asking someone else to stop smoking"..

Seeing a person that i've actually loved* didnt stop smoking after 2 years of my nagging before we broke up aint making me disapointed.. instead he wakes me up by giving me a virtual hard slap on my face..

It hurts the heart rather than the face..

Waking up from a sweet dream and entering the hell world definitely making my life upside down.. i am now looking at this world at a perfect point of view.. is like how I'm looking at this statement i've made..

I've tried so hard in the past 2 years to persuade him to stop smoking.. i do hope he does it because of me.. at least because I was his "DAMN GOOD GIRLFRIEND"..

After living my life without him for approx 2 years.. i realised that i done the biggest mistakes in my life for 21 years of life besides hurting my parents for being so rebellious..

I should have take up smoking before asking him to stop smoking.. at least i know how hard or how difficult a person need to ressist himself or herself from smoking.. I wasn't a smoker.. I am not a smoker now.. so i really have no idea how hard it is to stop smoking.. and i guess the none smoker cant really explain precisely the feeling.. maybe living without cigarrettes is like living in a world with no air? Perhaps i shall just stuck one cigarrettes in my damn mouth.. to at least make me qualified to do the advising.. yes.. i know its ridiculous..

One cant understand the pain of others only he or she has gone trough the same pain.. stand in others position before you do the talking..

* I just realized soon after we broke up and he has already dating another lovely girl.. whom was one of my goodfriend during my high school..

Why do I never know what I've got till its gone..

Story of a knife ..

Tomorrow would be pivotal?
Our relationship couldn't continue to balance,
as it did, on the point of a knife,
we would fall off one edge or the other,
depending entirely upon his decision,
or his instincts..
something is terrifying me..
what it is?