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Whenever it feels like crying.. bolster is all I have. 

#25.07.2010

Have anyone warn you about falling in love?

M.I.A

Will be away for a moment.

But before that, I want to make a shout out.

Happy anniversary to Joyce Woo Ling Ling! And Happy birthday. I love YOuuuuuuuuuu !!!!

Thanks for reading.

# 29.05.2010

A year ago mum told me that I'm a loner cause she didn't see me dating.

Today, mum trying to talk me out about getting married.

Come to the point, I don't think I have faith in love, then why marriage?

If one day any of u seeing me getting married, there are 2 reasons.

a) I just want to fulfill mom's dream like how I get myself into college.

b) Imma changed person & I met the real one.

Yet to know huh?

# 20.05.2010

Can someone please just remind me not to give up.

# 08.05.2010

I have this instant feeling to travel to another places, alone.

What is my happiest moment?

Posted this on FB yesterday.

I realized I'm indeed happy seeing the feedbacks.

but

What is my happiest moment.

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What i can think of now is ..

When i dance like nobody business.

Please dont get heart attack. Those aint me. lol.

I miss the time I dance in UTAR. I miss the time putting on my Ballet shoe.

I just miss dancing.

To me, dancing is like your soul has been pulled out from your physical body moving with the rhythm played blending with mixed feelings.

(sounded like a recipe pulak)

2 days before my birthday

I have this thinking that I am going to get crazee this weekend but it was unexpectedly happened the other way round. I have this very ..... weekends. Everyone just seems too busy for me. Have the thought that I can celebrate my birthday in advance with the people I love to hang out with.

But nevermind. Yes, I am abit sad. But nevermind. Will keep telling myself not to mind. It is just a birthday anyhow. I'm going to have this day again next year. And I can get crazee, not now but next year. Is just a matter of time right? :)

.Perhaps.

Is time to stay at home and do some thinking. Its been a while the last time I really have time for myself, reading books, do some serious blogging, spend time in saloon and shopping mall alone and stepping into the kitchen and made my favourite dish.

One mistake I made in my life actually changed the whole me.

I met up with my ex-housemate/ex-classmate/bff/pillowmate this morning. I'm glad that I actually said out a secret that I been hiding/keeping all the while. It is such a release. Thou it has nth to do with her. Nth to with you. Only me. It has been the worst nightmare I had. The one that have been haunting me for a year. For a whole damn year.

I still remember I cried in the middle of the night and went to look for a best friend of mine. And poof~ the night life of mine begin .... in a improper way ( if only drinking and dancing are improper) .. but happy. happy enough to at least put those sad love songs aside.

...

I was on my way back today using DUKE.

Saw Genting Highland from far and how much I wish that I am there at the moment.

Feeling the breeze wiping trough my face.

Breathing in the cooling fresh air.

Sipping a cup of hot chocolate.

Listening to jazz.

Looking at the twinkling light.

hmmm..

...

How much I wish that I am smilling now. Genuine one.

Weird.

I just posted my first note in FB with a weird title.

I have no idea how I came out with this title. Perhaps after taking drugs.

Hmmm...

22.10.09

Im going to mourn over my life in this post.

*Mourning mode on*

I really have no idea what I've been tru this few months except for working and sleepless night and wakeless morning.

I've been working like hell these few days.

Go to work at 7am and go home at 12am.

I don't even know how dusk looks like already.

*exaggerating mode on*

Sooner or later i might forgotten how myself look like as i do not have time to look at the mirror.

all I know is how numbers look like.

FML !

I really wish one day my boss will hop over to my place and say, " Ann Nee, u been working like hell these few days. why not take 1 week paid rest?"

Day dreaming mode off !

Back to work !

Urrghhh ..

Dear you,

I seriously feel like blogging

But I have freaking no time ! (english?) LOL

Below already showing that I am super hardworking/busy.

like seriously.

Just visit my FB to know what I am up to.

Cheers peeper ....

Will be back with a very interesting post perhaps. =P

w/ <3

**Now you see me !

It seems like I have abandoned my little blog for 317231 days thou knowing that no one has actually visited my blog but myself. Well, perhaps all this while I treated my blog as a place on earth for me to say things out when I couldn't find people to talk to.

What I'm up to this few months weeks days when I wasn't blogging here? hmm.. Damn, it is going to be a very long long list. There are so much I wanted to blog about since March'09. Bout my look after taking out the ugly yet super expensive braces, my graduation days, how much I missed my friends after graduating, how is my first job, how happy I am getting my first pay cheque, the terrible work load, my come n go colleagues, my boss, how upset am I, ......... endless list. Better stop before the ZZZzzzzz came into action.

Lets put those aside for a moment as there are really a lot to talk about.

I was watching a very beautiful yet hilarious movie. I am so sure that 89.97% for people my age has already watched that movie.

The Proposal it is.

Why it is so beautiful when it is acted, why it isn't when it comes to real.

L.O.V.E is what i meant.

I am so into this movie and been repeating the part where Sandra Dance. LOL. hilarious.

<3

**-Now you don't-

Ann Nee is under emo-struction

.......... pms pms pms pms pms pms .........

To the Twilight readers out there.

We are too old for the book.

Random

Sometimes I just feel like getting drunk. When I mean drunk, it is not the kind of getting only tipsy. But drunk! When you can’t even recall what you did last night. Yes, that kind of drunk.

There are too much things to be bothered. You hope you can just temporarily put those aside for a moment and enjoy your life. You hope that things will automatically be better the next day when you don’t feel like bothering it,

“what? Solved? Weeeee~~~”,

yeah, that kind of situation.
I definitely know that this is an act or irresponsible. I know it is too naïve. But you do still want this to happen on you, perhaps “sometimes”. At least to myself. There’s no need for me to deny.

When I am in deep dilemma.
When there’s conflict.
When there’s problem I do not want really want to face.

But …
In some corner of your heart you know you still need to stand strong and face the problems. Even when you have been hurt, stand up.. stand strong.. everything will be alright one day.

*my mind is disjointed, pardon for the broken and meaningless sentence.*

I am stronger than yesterday. But how much stronger I can be?

AWAY !

Will be away for another week.

hehe.

class trip to somewhere.

will post about it once I got back.

Lurve u guys.

-muah-

Random #13042009

My STML ( Short Term Memory Loss ) sickness getting worse. I couldnt recall what I've commented in Ms CLK's blog 5 minutes ago. Shyt ! How am I going to sit for my final. gosh. I look llike 18 years old but I have the memory of 80 year-old-lady. worse than that I guess. The female version of Benjamin Button.

My CGPA is dropping. Plus I flunk one midterm test so I really need to work hard for my final semester or else ......... *no idea what to write*

Today I spent 2 hours in the library. Didn't manage to read alot.

........ is because I camwhore too ! ahaha .. sigh .. I know it aint funny. I myself kinda disapointed thou with my procrastinate attitude. Knowing that I do not have much time left till my final exam i can still main main alone in the library. cis! seriously hate my attitute. Can someone please just slap to wake me up.

I love to sit facing or next to the window in the library to get enough sun light.

Camwhore With all my stationery around me. lol.

jeng jeng jeng ...

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The RAJIN part of me ... ahaha ..

alright. stoping here. I need to study already !

aja aja faiti !

(above was a stolen qoute from Miss CLK. I thought Faiti Is her bf's name. lol!)

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Random #11042009

I have a great day.

A picture of myself before I go for a date. Oh? What did I just typed? *giggle*

I had Sushi for lunch/dinner.

I watched Knowing and the movie is good. Recommended.

I went to buy some groceries for supper.

I made salad and it taste so good!

I went CyberFusion and saw 2 incredible KFC and PIZZA HUT truck parked outside MMU Grandhall. and not forgotten two ambulance. I guess in case the participant faint halfway through completing the marathon.

I hang around MMU campus in middle of the night and it feels spooky. So big and so quiet. So far MMU(Cyberjaya) is the nicest campus I've visited.

I was superb tired last night. But it is still a great day for me.

Super tired Super great.

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Random #03042009

Am I going to lose a very good friend?

We have great time together but you are now ignoring me.

Is there something happened or happening between us that I have no idea what it is?

Is there something I did and that hurts you?

Please tell me unless you do not want to see me banging my head to the wall figuring out what's happening.

I am so perplex.

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Taken after the photo shooting session.

Unintentionally took this picture but I pick this picture on purpose.

Take care my friend.

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Random #02042009

Today, I am officially announced that I've FLUNK my MADM midterm test.

Delayed prank? I hope it was a prank.

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