Fingers

I was checking my email .. and then something cought my attention .. it was some random advertisement by hotmail..

The dancing fingers are so attractive that did not bother what the advertisement all about.. i was just so busy clicking the print screen button .. LOL

Besides it makes me think back that i have actually did something similar to this during my high school ..

Smilley-Fingers-drawings

Did you do this silly activity during your school time .. ? or is it I'm the only weird girl who actually draw on the skin instead of drawing papers ?

Well.. If you think im weird .. tell you what .. i abolutely enjoying being weird .. =)

My Reality

Dreams might begin with you standing alone on an empty road ..

Dreams might end up with you falling inlove with someone you did not meet in reality ..

The love is so strong .. so strong that makes me rather just sleep forever than waking up facing the pain ..

The pain you have no idea how much time it takes to fade ..

Met you by surprise I didn't realize that my life would change forever …

Saw you sitting in the crowd, didn't I know I care, there was something special in the air …

Dreams are my reality, the only kind of my real fantasy, illusion are a common thing …

I try to live in dream as if it's meant to be …

I dream of loving tonight and loving seems alright, though it’s only fantasy …

If you do appearing in front of me, honey don’t resist to show me a new way of loving …

Tell me that it’s true, show me what to do …

I feel something special about you …

Dreams are my reality, the only kind of reality, a wondrous world where I like to be …

IF ..

If a pictures could paint a thousand of words, then why i couldn't paint you?

The words would never show the you i've come to know ..

If i could turn back time, i'll take back all my words that hurt every corner of your heart ..
If i could turn back time, i'll share all your sorrow, grief, sadness ..
If i could turn back time, i'll hold my bad temper ..
If i could turn back time, i'll listen to your advise ..
If i could turn back time, i'll hold your face and kiss tenderly on your lips ..
If i could turn back time, i'll stay beside you whenever u need me ..
If i could turn back time, i wouldn't have sit here and write this blog ..

If God is willing to give me another chance to prove how I am still so inlove with you ..
I'll give all my best..

You deseve nothing but the best.

What if

A song that cannot be any more true..

A song that meant to sing to me..

For of all sad words of tongue or pen, the saddest are these..

Regret...

Here I stand alone
With this weight upon my heart
And it will not go away
In my head I keep on looking back
Right back to the start
Wondering what it was that made you change

Well I tried
But I had to draw the line
And still this question keeps on spinning in my mind

What if I had never let you go
Would you be the man I used to know
If I'd stayed If you'd tried
If we could only turn back time
But I guess we'll never know

Many roads to take
Some to joy
Some to heart-ache
Anyone can lose their way

And if I said that we could turn it back
Right back to the start
Would you take the chance and make the change
Do you think how it would have been sometimes
Do you pray that I'd never left your side

What if I had never let you go
Would you be the man I used to know

If I'd stayed
If you'd tried
If we could only turn back time
But I guess we'll never know

If only we could turn the hands of time
If I could take you back would you still be mine

'Cos I tried
But I had to draw the line
And still this question keep on spinning in my mind

What if I had never let you go
Would you be the man I used to know
What if I had never walked away
'Cos I still love you more than I can say

If I'd stayed, If you'd tried
If we could only turn back time
But I guess we'll never know
We'll never know

sang by Kate Winslet...

Only in your imagination can you revise ....

Sickening conversation..

She : Hello..

He : What time u woke up?

She : Right after you called me..

He : What time u slept last night?

She : Right after i gave u a goodnight message..

He : Did u wake up in the middle of the night?

She : Yes..

He : What u did?

She : Study..

He : After that..?

She : Sleep lor.. so late ady..

He : Did u do anything else?

She : Yea.. went out for supper with housemates for a while..

He : Why didnt u tell me ?

She : Erk.. but i told u once u asked me what i did besides studying..

He : But why didnt u tell me right after i asked u what u did after u wake up.. u dont really wanna let me know.. don't u?

She : No.. I do have the intention to tell you..

He : but then why u lied?

She : I did not ! Is just that i know u will keep on asking me questions so i might just leave it for the latter..

He : U can actually let me know right after im asking u.. but why u didnt?

She : There's nothing wrong answering it later..

He : U can actually let me know sooner but u did not ..

She : Whats the wrong with you?

He : Is because u trying to lie to me by not answering it..

She : But i did answer you !

He : Is when im asking the 2nd time...

She : But i answered.. didn't i ?

He : But u could have answered before i asked u the second time ...

She : Is that really matter?

He : I just do not understand why didnt u answered me before i asked u the second time..

She : ....

and the wonderful quarelling begin ..

He : @#$#@%$^ ( you should let me know once i asked !! )

She : @!#@#%$#%$%@$@ ( I DID ..!! )

and guess what??

.. it takes both of them 2 hours to end up this stupid conversation

Let the "Female Dog" do the talking ..

2 weeeks ago i posted this personal message in my MSN ..

If anyone of u cant see the picture clearly .. i've actually wrote "I shall take up smoking before asking someone else to stop smoking"..

Seeing a person that i've actually loved* didnt stop smoking after 2 years of my nagging before we broke up aint making me disapointed.. instead he wakes me up by giving me a virtual hard slap on my face..

It hurts the heart rather than the face..

Waking up from a sweet dream and entering the hell world definitely making my life upside down.. i am now looking at this world at a perfect point of view.. is like how I'm looking at this statement i've made..

I've tried so hard in the past 2 years to persuade him to stop smoking.. i do hope he does it because of me.. at least because I was his "DAMN GOOD GIRLFRIEND"..

After living my life without him for approx 2 years.. i realised that i done the biggest mistakes in my life for 21 years of life besides hurting my parents for being so rebellious..

I should have take up smoking before asking him to stop smoking.. at least i know how hard or how difficult a person need to ressist himself or herself from smoking.. I wasn't a smoker.. I am not a smoker now.. so i really have no idea how hard it is to stop smoking.. and i guess the none smoker cant really explain precisely the feeling.. maybe living without cigarrettes is like living in a world with no air? Perhaps i shall just stuck one cigarrettes in my damn mouth.. to at least make me qualified to do the advising.. yes.. i know its ridiculous..

One cant understand the pain of others only he or she has gone trough the same pain.. stand in others position before you do the talking..

* I just realized soon after we broke up and he has already dating another lovely girl.. whom was one of my goodfriend during my high school..

Why do I never know what I've got till its gone..